July 11, 2006 08:48 AM
Been Dazed and Confused...
This past week has been...um...I guess you could call it weird. My son has been at sleep-away camp, and it's the first time he's been away from us--more than just an overnight or weekend at Grandma's--in 11 years. It's a very strange feeling to wake up in the house and not have him there. I started really missing him yesterday, when I came across a Web site I thought he'd be interested in. I started to call out for him to come down to my office, when I realized that if I did, nothing would happen. While driving my the car, I've turned around a few times to check the back seat, because it's so quiet. Then I realize why. Because he's not in the car with me. How did he become such a big boy overnight? It's exciting and at the same time a little sad. I just don't have little kids anymore. And never will.
So anyway, another weird thing happened, that I won't elaborate on too much. But yesterday, I learned something about someone I thought I knew, and it makes me wonder why some people would choose to lie. So I started wondering about people and their nature. What it is that makes us who we are? Is it upbringing? Is it genetics? Fate? I don't really know. I've always hated lying, but I do understand that life is complicated, and sometimes, we are all forced to lie a bit. I just don't know if I'll ever understand why someone would choose to lie about something they don't have to lie about. I'm talking about big lies--lies about who you are. And why would a person lie to just a few people, when many others know the truth? Aren't they afraid they will be caught? Isn't it easier to tell the truth, even if it disappoints people for a little while? Because being revealed as someone who lies about something so fundamental has got to be worse than that. And isn't it difficult to live a lie? To wake up each morning and think "God, I hope they don't find out today." I don't get it.
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Lying is a BIG button for me, LC. And one I have an extremely difficult time overlooking. I find it completely disrespectful, but I also find that people who do it have little self-respect, and have more than a healthy dose of insecurity and immaturity. I find it incredibly insulting, though, and am sorry you're dealing with it on your end.
Posted by: Tammy at July 11, 2006 05:23 PM
